something of interest.

first i read this article…

Why Gen Y Yuppies Are Unhappy

it’s interesting.  there are cartoon charts and a message that makes some sense.  but while reading it, i felt rather silly.  i mean, i’m a Gen Y kid.  am i entitled?  am i spoiled?  do i set the bar too high, but fail to work my butt off to reach that bar?  hmmm.  pretty sure i’ve been working my butt off since middle school.  pretty sure i have a good degree.  absolutely sure that good degree is completely paid for thanks to my car accident.  pretty sure that i’ve worked in my field, but then had to leave my field, only to rejoin it this spring.  oh.  and i’m absolutely sure that although i’m working and working, i’m still not able to purchase a home or pay for a wedding or start a family on one income…or even on the two incomes of our household.

so then this article came out…

I’m Gen Y

it’s also interesting.  there are valid points here defending the Gen Y folks, and explaining that our parents didn’t have to struggle through the (let’s use the appropriate term here) economic depression that we are struggling through.  i guess after reading them both, i’m still not making any more money and the economy is still horrific.  but chin up folks!  there are still plenty of articles being posted on facebook for us to read while we’re staying poor and setting our unrealistically high special expectations.  so there’s that.



something popped up in my feed reader.  it made me sit up.  it made me re-read.  it made me think – THIS.  SAVE THIS.  YOU NEED THIS.


and the first place i thought to save it was here.  after another round of months without doing anything on here, i thought of this space when i wanted to save something.  when i wanted to document and record something that is important and meaningful and may just help me keep my wits about me when lots of things are not going well at all.


this.  this is the spark that will hopefully catch in my life.  thanks to the lovely and always readable (even when it’s just a meal plan for the week) Helen Jane for the solid advice for school girls of all ages.

Energy Begets Energy

The more energy I put out, the more energy gets created.
I make my own energy.

This fact has gotten me over my love of the couch,
my fear of exercise, and
further in my career.

The more energy I put out, the more I get.
Early morning runs and jump roping,
Late night prep and conversations.

Muster up the energy to create more energy.
It’s not easy, but it propels. Further.



+it’s good to be alone

+you eat a LITTLE more than half of the doughnut you are going to share with someone you love

+you eat two whole doughnuts to yourself…and that’s okay

+you should take your time drinking your coffee

+you get really excited about birthdays that are still months and months away

+you need to go barefoot…or sandal-ed.  the sun feels good on your toes

+quiet is the best sound

+pinterest is not as helpful as you want it to be

+the same can be said for facebook

+you’re not great at the thing you want to be great at…and that’s hard to accept

+you should still try to be great

+you should fold your laundry.  not all the times…but sometimes because that makes M happy

+you think about the job you left and how much happier you are because of that

+you just need to write out a list.  so you do.  and it feels good.

happy long memorial weekend.

shaking it out

it’s been a tough week. which is strange for me to say because, in reality, things are pretty alright around here. i have a new job and it’s going well – it’s back in my degree, which is satisfying. the weather has perked up nicely…finally. thanks montana for catching on to the fact that it’s MAY. M is wonderful. i should be dancing a spring-like jig.

then why can i only focus on the bad stuff? i’m such a downer. but i need some time to just whine. and i figure this isn’t a bad place to do it. i mean, i run this joint, so might as well let loose and get it out there. so…

my lord i am so sick of not being able to link my work and home computers. there are a CRAP TON of people using apple products in the world. why is it so absurdly hard to connect a mac and a pc? it’s not freakin’ rocket science people. let’s get a solution so that i can leave the padded room and write my reports on my couch with some salt and vinegar chips AND the mindy project on hulu plus. not too much to ask.

i would like a magic fairy to buy my groceries for me. scratch that. i would like ANY fairy to buy my groceries for me. and if i’m really being honest, you can pretend to be a fairy. just make sure i have groceries in my house on the regular. i enjoy grocery shopping. making lists, pulling recipes, wandering and price comparing and the awful music they play. i like it all. but after getting through a full day with the rascals in my program. i’m beat. i can just about make dinner for myself…if i have the ingredients. it has been about three weeks or more since we purchased ingredients. there is very little making dinner, and a whole mess of buying random items to throw stuff together and ooo that frozen lasagna looks good and yeah i definitely want a slice of pizza while i’m waiting for that to cook. healthy foods…not making it through the hangry haze that has attached itself to my kitchen.

part of the no grocery kick is/was the randomness of our schedules. but now i’m on a solid monday to friday, 6:30-but-really-more-like-6:47-or-sometimes-7:01 wake up, and home by 5 at the latest. M is still all over the place. he’s fairly consistent in having monday/tuesday/friday nights off. and we get saturday and sunday too. until something comes up at the restaurant (all the time lately) and now he’s covering tuesday and friday and saturday nights plus his normal wednesday/thursday nights, so let’s just see each other when one of us is a) not up yet in the morning or b) already asleep at night? i leave for work before he’s up most mornings. he gets home when i SHOULD be in bed on work nights. this leads to me staying up late so i can at least get some face-to-face interaction or passing out on the couch waiting and being GRUMPYYY upon his arrival. i’m not a good couch sleeper. so i’d file this under the “yay lots of money, boo no boyfriend” tab. i prefer to keep that file as small as possible. boyfriend over extra money almost every single time.

okay. vented that out. silver linings? 1) i have a job and i’m sure that i’ll figure out a way to manage my report writing soon. also, 16 days left in the school year. cake. 2) i’m not going to starve. i can make food. farmers markets are open so i’ll just bring the veggie goodness this weekend. 3) money. money means getting to enjoy the farmers market this weekend…and brunch (mmmm bistro)…and time with M is almost here. it’s wednesday. two more days until we’re back on the relaxation train for a bit…and there’ll be hard earned money to spend when we get there because of all the time we spent apart during the week.

final silver lining? all this crap pushed me back onto the blog. FINALLY. 😉 maybe this will be another (a third? fourth? lost count.) new start. hip hip for that.


it’s cold.  and windy.  and the snow has started.  R doesn’t know what to do with herself – she’s dying to go outside, but is so confused by the flurries.  silly pup.  she played in snow a bunch when we first brought her home in february!

today i’m pushing through some stress by eating warm chocolate chip pumpkin cake for breakfast and drinking some tea out of one of my favorite HUGE mugs.  there will also be cooking and maybe even some baking prep for the holidays.  i’ve pulled out some of my gramma’s classic recipes and some of the new favorites that i’ve discovered in the past few years of being a ‘grown up’ and gifting on my own.  such a strange feeling being so far from ‘home’ during the holidays.  i don’t know if i’ll ever adjust.  i’ll admit…it hurts my heart just thinking about another thanksgiving and christmas away from beauport.  not even jessica simpson, nat king cole, and she&him carols can take that away completely.

and because i’m on a mini-roll again (yayyy), here’s my appreciation for the day!

hope your day is less blustery but just as thankful!

under the weather


this weekend started with a major plot twist involving six hour car rides on both friday and monday with an overnight at work sandwiched in between.  the overnight was planned, M’s trip was planned, but the detour to bozeman was not planned at all.  we rolled with it like pros, and after all was said and done, i rolled into a seriously gross 24 hour flu of some sort.

today is my day off for the week, and i am taking it easy, slowly coming out of the funk and fog.  so with good intentions of getting back on a regular posting schedule, some weekend highlights (i know you’ve been waiting for them.  especially you kourt & khlo.)…

+being R’s favorite while M is out of the picture.  early morning hikes, late afternoon hikes, super snuggles on M’s side of the bed.

+the rogue hitting 50k miles on the first drive back from bozeman.

+a perfect saturday morning – farmer’s market finds, pumpkin spice coffee, & bacon-y treats.

+trying a new recipe and tweaking an old one.

+knowing that M was in good hands back home.  i love that he loves my family, and they love him.  he got to see my grandparents and be there for my brother’s birthday.

+having a successful overnight at work.

+surprising M with the pup at the airport.  that boy loves his dog.  and she loves him.  it’s so ridiculous but so cute.

and with that, i’m going to get back to my tea and awful tv on hulu (gossip girl, anyone?).  there may be a family walk in my afternoon forecast, but it is still incredibly smokey here from the fires.  if you have any rain, send it to montana.  we need it.


having a dog definitely has ups and downs. particularly if you adopt a puppy – a young, energetic, crazy puppy.

R is having some difficulties with our family’s new schedule. she is anxious (which, i mean, duh…welcome to the club), stressed, and acting out. all perfectly normal reactions to change…for any living being. however, M and i are trying incredibly hard to still give her the attention and physical outlets that she needs and deserves. we’re trying to be good ‘puppy parents’ – a term which is both completely revolting and disturbingly accurate.

R is ignoring basic commands that she is normally capable of completing without issue. the biggest problem is that she’s not being safe when we’re out on walks. i would have a hard time getting over my girl being hit by a car. a very hard time. so definite downsides to puppy-dom.

but then there are the perks. oh the perks. like the snuggles that she so rarely gives out. or the silly hop-run combo when she’s excited about something. and the eyes…the richard alpert eyes.

today on our walk at blue mountain, R wowed every person we met. the compliments were kind and frequent ‘she’s beautiful!’  ‘look at those ears!’ ‘what a sweetheart!’…i could go on and on. but the best was hearing ‘wow, she really listens to you. anytime you talk she’s back, checking in and making sure things are okay.’ my girl. my heart was pretty full for the rest of the walk. possibly the rest of the day…it totally depends on how many of my things she rips to shreds.