energy

something popped up in my feed reader.  it made me sit up.  it made me re-read.  it made me think – THIS.  SAVE THIS.  YOU NEED THIS.

 

and the first place i thought to save it was here.  after another round of months without doing anything on here, i thought of this space when i wanted to save something.  when i wanted to document and record something that is important and meaningful and may just help me keep my wits about me when lots of things are not going well at all.

 

this.  this is the spark that will hopefully catch in my life.  thanks to the lovely and always readable (even when it’s just a meal plan for the week) Helen Jane for the solid advice for school girls of all ages.

Energy Begets Energy

The more energy I put out, the more energy gets created.
I make my own energy.

This fact has gotten me over my love of the couch,
my fear of exercise, and
further in my career.

The more energy I put out, the more I get.
Early morning runs and jump roping,
Late night prep and conversations.

Muster up the energy to create more energy.
It’s not easy, but it propels. Further.

 

shaking it out

it’s been a tough week. which is strange for me to say because, in reality, things are pretty alright around here. i have a new job and it’s going well – it’s back in my degree, which is satisfying. the weather has perked up nicely…finally. thanks montana for catching on to the fact that it’s MAY. M is wonderful. i should be dancing a spring-like jig.

then why can i only focus on the bad stuff? i’m such a downer. but i need some time to just whine. and i figure this isn’t a bad place to do it. i mean, i run this joint, so might as well let loose and get it out there. so…

my lord i am so sick of not being able to link my work and home computers. there are a CRAP TON of people using apple products in the world. why is it so absurdly hard to connect a mac and a pc? it’s not freakin’ rocket science people. let’s get a solution so that i can leave the padded room and write my reports on my couch with some salt and vinegar chips AND the mindy project on hulu plus. not too much to ask.

i would like a magic fairy to buy my groceries for me. scratch that. i would like ANY fairy to buy my groceries for me. and if i’m really being honest, you can pretend to be a fairy. just make sure i have groceries in my house on the regular. i enjoy grocery shopping. making lists, pulling recipes, wandering and price comparing and the awful music they play. i like it all. but after getting through a full day with the rascals in my program. i’m beat. i can just about make dinner for myself…if i have the ingredients. it has been about three weeks or more since we purchased ingredients. there is very little making dinner, and a whole mess of buying random items to throw stuff together and ooo that frozen lasagna looks good and yeah i definitely want a slice of pizza while i’m waiting for that to cook. healthy foods…not making it through the hangry haze that has attached itself to my kitchen.

part of the no grocery kick is/was the randomness of our schedules. but now i’m on a solid monday to friday, 6:30-but-really-more-like-6:47-or-sometimes-7:01 wake up, and home by 5 at the latest. M is still all over the place. he’s fairly consistent in having monday/tuesday/friday nights off. and we get saturday and sunday too. until something comes up at the restaurant (all the time lately) and now he’s covering tuesday and friday and saturday nights plus his normal wednesday/thursday nights, so let’s just see each other when one of us is a) not up yet in the morning or b) already asleep at night? i leave for work before he’s up most mornings. he gets home when i SHOULD be in bed on work nights. this leads to me staying up late so i can at least get some face-to-face interaction or passing out on the couch waiting and being GRUMPYYY upon his arrival. i’m not a good couch sleeper. so i’d file this under the “yay lots of money, boo no boyfriend” tab. i prefer to keep that file as small as possible. boyfriend over extra money almost every single time.

okay. vented that out. silver linings? 1) i have a job and i’m sure that i’ll figure out a way to manage my report writing soon. also, 16 days left in the school year. cake. 2) i’m not going to starve. i can make food. farmers markets are open so i’ll just bring the veggie goodness this weekend. 3) money. money means getting to enjoy the farmers market this weekend…and brunch (mmmm bistro)…and time with M is almost here. it’s wednesday. two more days until we’re back on the relaxation train for a bit…and there’ll be hard earned money to spend when we get there because of all the time we spent apart during the week.

final silver lining? all this crap pushed me back onto the blog. FINALLY. 😉 maybe this will be another (a third? fourth? lost count.) new start. hip hip for that.

daring to be mighty and thankful.

so i’ve officially joined Go Mighty!  i received my log-in info the other day, and posted a few goals.  it feels good to get on track.  to make my life list listed somewhere.  to be inspired to live mightier, grander, richer (experience-wise, not money-wise…although that would be nice).  i’m trying to get back on track here.  but i’ll admit it’s difficult.  i think i can be more diligent and deliberate.  however, realistic is also an important word to keep in mind. so we’re taking it slowly with toddler steps – shakey and unsteady but determined.

and with that being said, i’m attempting to participate in the Appreciation Engine’s Thanksgiving Challenge.  i’m a bit tardy to the party, but am making up for lost time.  each day, you make an audio recording of something for which you’re grateful/thankful.  today i posted two separate recordings of three things so i’m almost caught up.  i think this is something i can (and SHOULD) follow up on each day.  seconds of my time to create a positive habit.  i like the sound of that.

i’m on both sites as kasaro if you’re interested.  you should sign up too.

let’s be mighty appreciative together.