shaking it out

it’s been a tough week. which is strange for me to say because, in reality, things are pretty alright around here. i have a new job and it’s going well – it’s back in my degree, which is satisfying. the weather has perked up nicely…finally. thanks montana for catching on to the fact that it’s MAY. M is wonderful. i should be dancing a spring-like jig.

then why can i only focus on the bad stuff? i’m such a downer. but i need some time to just whine. and i figure this isn’t a bad place to do it. i mean, i run this joint, so might as well let loose and get it out there. so…

my lord i am so sick of not being able to link my work and home computers. there are a CRAP TON of people using apple products in the world. why is it so absurdly hard to connect a mac and a pc? it’s not freakin’ rocket science people. let’s get a solution so that i can leave the padded room and write my reports on my couch with some salt and vinegar chips AND the mindy project on hulu plus. not too much to ask.

i would like a magic fairy to buy my groceries for me. scratch that. i would like ANY fairy to buy my groceries for me. and if i’m really being honest, you can pretend to be a fairy. just make sure i have groceries in my house on the regular. i enjoy grocery shopping. making lists, pulling recipes, wandering and price comparing and the awful music they play. i like it all. but after getting through a full day with the rascals in my program. i’m beat. i can just about make dinner for myself…if i have the ingredients. it has been about three weeks or more since we purchased ingredients. there is very little making dinner, and a whole mess of buying random items to throw stuff together and ooo that frozen lasagna looks good and yeah i definitely want a slice of pizza while i’m waiting for that to cook. healthy foods…not making it through the hangry haze that has attached itself to my kitchen.

part of the no grocery kick is/was the randomness of our schedules. but now i’m on a solid monday to friday, 6:30-but-really-more-like-6:47-or-sometimes-7:01 wake up, and home by 5 at the latest. M is still all over the place. he’s fairly consistent in having monday/tuesday/friday nights off. and we get saturday and sunday too. until something comes up at the restaurant (all the time lately) and now he’s covering tuesday and friday and saturday nights plus his normal wednesday/thursday nights, so let’s just see each other when one of us is a) not up yet in the morning or b) already asleep at night? i leave for work before he’s up most mornings. he gets home when i SHOULD be in bed on work nights. this leads to me staying up late so i can at least get some face-to-face interaction or passing out on the couch waiting and being GRUMPYYY upon his arrival. i’m not a good couch sleeper. so i’d file this under the “yay lots of money, boo no boyfriend” tab. i prefer to keep that file as small as possible. boyfriend over extra money almost every single time.

okay. vented that out. silver linings? 1) i have a job and i’m sure that i’ll figure out a way to manage my report writing soon. also, 16 days left in the school year. cake. 2) i’m not going to starve. i can make food. farmers markets are open so i’ll just bring the veggie goodness this weekend. 3) money. money means getting to enjoy the farmers market this weekend…and brunch (mmmm bistro)…and time with M is almost here. it’s wednesday. two more days until we’re back on the relaxation train for a bit…and there’ll be hard earned money to spend when we get there because of all the time we spent apart during the week.

final silver lining? all this crap pushed me back onto the blog. FINALLY. 😉 maybe this will be another (a third? fourth? lost count.) new start. hip hip for that.


life’s a taco!

M and i are simply smitten by the latest (now a year old) muppet movie.  i’ve always loved the muppets…watching the muppet show is an early-ish memory for me, as are the muppet babies.  rolf, fozzie, kermie, gonzo, AN-I-MAAAALLLL – how can you NOT love them?

anyway.  we heard great things about the movie from a couple in line with us at target several months back.  they were purchasing it on dvd.  M and i chose it as our in-flight/airport entertainment for our trip east this summer.  we don’t really watch tv or movies because of M’s adhd doesn’t really lend itself to sitting still and focusing on a screen for an hour and change.  but we had a long layover on our way back and were pretty beat.  we were hooked.  as i said, smitten.  this song is our favorite.  bret mckenzie (oscar winning musical composer for the film) has been a favorite for a while because of flight of the conchords.  it’s not strange to hear us quoting lines from this song to each other out of the blue.

here’s the non-movie version from the ny times magazine that we love (enjoy fun moments @ 1:37 and 2:00):


M and i really like the local version of Whole Foods that we have here.  it’s called the Good Food Store, and it generally lives up to it’s name: good.  i enjoy their large bulk-item section, especially when diving into a new recipe that i’m not 100% sure about.  the staff is usually really knowledgeable   they have some pretty yummy veggie sushi.  they carry a delicious blackberry sorbet that M drools over.  there’s also the salad bar and the awesome broccoli salad with craisins and sunflower seeds.  the GFS is good.  real good.

but down to the issue at hand:  the breakfast burritos.  they’re something that M and i enjoy on occasion as a quick, nom-tastic breakfast date.  you can choose from eggs or tofu, with or without potatoes.  they also let you add three more items to your burrito – salsa, sour cream, cheese, bacon, avocado, and tomato.  super delish.  hooray for adding more.  but there’s a catch.  only three more items?  i mean, i want my eggs, potatoes, bacon, cheese, salsa…oh no!  NO!  those are all my options!  i still need to add sour cream.  or avocado!  wait!!!

now i’ve had this conversation with M on numerous occasions.  to be completely fair, you CAN add extra items at 50¢ each.  but that doesn’t seem right.  why isn’t cheese a given?!  why can’t people see that you really need the egg/tofu, potatoes and FOUR more options?  and then it hit me.  vegans.

if you’re vegan – and there are a whole bunch here in town, all enjoying the GFS – your burrito would look like this: tofu and potatoes plus salsa, avocado, and tomato.  see that?  just three pick-your-own items.  that’s where the line is drawn.  with the vegan choices.
so thanks, vegans.  real smooth of you to infiltrate and limit my breakfast noms.  next time, i’m going to the BSB.

under the weather


this weekend started with a major plot twist involving six hour car rides on both friday and monday with an overnight at work sandwiched in between.  the overnight was planned, M’s trip was planned, but the detour to bozeman was not planned at all.  we rolled with it like pros, and after all was said and done, i rolled into a seriously gross 24 hour flu of some sort.

today is my day off for the week, and i am taking it easy, slowly coming out of the funk and fog.  so with good intentions of getting back on a regular posting schedule, some weekend highlights (i know you’ve been waiting for them.  especially you kourt & khlo.)…

+being R’s favorite while M is out of the picture.  early morning hikes, late afternoon hikes, super snuggles on M’s side of the bed.

+the rogue hitting 50k miles on the first drive back from bozeman.

+a perfect saturday morning – farmer’s market finds, pumpkin spice coffee, & bacon-y treats.

+trying a new recipe and tweaking an old one.

+knowing that M was in good hands back home.  i love that he loves my family, and they love him.  he got to see my grandparents and be there for my brother’s birthday.

+having a successful overnight at work.

+surprising M with the pup at the airport.  that boy loves his dog.  and she loves him.  it’s so ridiculous but so cute.

and with that, i’m going to get back to my tea and awful tv on hulu (gossip girl, anyone?).  there may be a family walk in my afternoon forecast, but it is still incredibly smokey here from the fires.  if you have any rain, send it to montana.  we need it.

(good) morning

out here, it’s still a bit dark at 6:30am.  i like to be in bed, under the covers, all snuggly and such at that time of the morning.  particularly on days when i’m closing the store and don’t have to be into work until 2pm.

so naturally, this morning i was up at 6:30am and pulling on layers of warm clothes.  wool socks.  patagonia base layers.  a hat.  it’s cold at 6:30am.  and colder when you hike up waterworks hill.

the things i do for my dog and my man.

oh yes.  and for my health.  that too.
but you’ve got to admit, the view is pretty sweet…


**also remembering what today is and all those deeply and permanently effected by the events 11 years ago.  (and particularly everyone who was with me on the couches in campus ministry as we listened in confusion, disbelief, and horror.)**

a facelift & some notes

i just made the 284th facelift/update to how this place looks – i think this will stick for a bit. clean. simple. easy to navigate. not that there’s much content to navigate. with that being said…i finally uploaded my iphone pictures onto M’s computer. this is a big deal. over 1000 photos are now available for me to use…on the computer that i actually use daily. the chances of me updating and posting on a semi-regular basis just increased by a bunch. so that’s great.

other good things:
+our washer and dryer are officially operational.
+i have already cooked something delicious today and have plans for more cooking this afternoon.
+R has been a bit of an angel today.
+the weather here is increasingly fall-like, which i love.
+there may be a giant hulu marathon in my future…like tonight. not sure what to watch.

hooray for moving in the right direction! cheesy mexican rice dip and salsa chicken? here i come!

living together

normally M and i have a wonderful working relationship.  not even just a working relationship – a real, committed, forever partnership.  we’re a team.  best friends.  partners.  it’s awesome.  and it has been for a long time now – almost a full year of living together!  go us!

which is why it’s so sad that i have to kill him.

M simply doesn’t understand that because we live together, he should really make sure that decisions that effect us as a family are made by both of us.  like visitors.  back to back, week+ stay, HIS FAMILY visitors.  don’t get me wrong.  i love his family.  i love visitors.  i love all of it!  unless it’s taking up my ENTIRE month of july without consideration for the fact that a) i live here too and b) we’re not going to be IN montana for the last week of july! 

so i may be on the run after today.  and M may be missing.  don’t ask too many questions.  it’ll just complicate the matter.