shaking it out

it’s been a tough week. which is strange for me to say because, in reality, things are pretty alright around here. i have a new job and it’s going well – it’s back in my degree, which is satisfying. the weather has perked up nicely…finally. thanks montana for catching on to the fact that it’s MAY. M is wonderful. i should be dancing a spring-like jig.

then why can i only focus on the bad stuff? i’m such a downer. but i need some time to just whine. and i figure this isn’t a bad place to do it. i mean, i run this joint, so might as well let loose and get it out there. so…

my lord i am so sick of not being able to link my work and home computers. there are a CRAP TON of people using apple products in the world. why is it so absurdly hard to connect a mac and a pc? it’s not freakin’ rocket science people. let’s get a solution so that i can leave the padded room and write my reports on my couch with some salt and vinegar chips AND the mindy project on hulu plus. not too much to ask.

i would like a magic fairy to buy my groceries for me. scratch that. i would like ANY fairy to buy my groceries for me. and if i’m really being honest, you can pretend to be a fairy. just make sure i have groceries in my house on the regular. i enjoy grocery shopping. making lists, pulling recipes, wandering and price comparing and the awful music they play. i like it all. but after getting through a full day with the rascals in my program. i’m beat. i can just about make dinner for myself…if i have the ingredients. it has been about three weeks or more since we purchased ingredients. there is very little making dinner, and a whole mess of buying random items to throw stuff together and ooo that frozen lasagna looks good and yeah i definitely want a slice of pizza while i’m waiting for that to cook. healthy foods…not making it through the hangry haze that has attached itself to my kitchen.

part of the no grocery kick is/was the randomness of our schedules. but now i’m on a solid monday to friday, 6:30-but-really-more-like-6:47-or-sometimes-7:01 wake up, and home by 5 at the latest. M is still all over the place. he’s fairly consistent in having monday/tuesday/friday nights off. and we get saturday and sunday too. until something comes up at the restaurant (all the time lately) and now he’s covering tuesday and friday and saturday nights plus his normal wednesday/thursday nights, so let’s just see each other when one of us is a) not up yet in the morning or b) already asleep at night? i leave for work before he’s up most mornings. he gets home when i SHOULD be in bed on work nights. this leads to me staying up late so i can at least get some face-to-face interaction or passing out on the couch waiting and being GRUMPYYY upon his arrival. i’m not a good couch sleeper. so i’d file this under the “yay lots of money, boo no boyfriend” tab. i prefer to keep that file as small as possible. boyfriend over extra money almost every single time.

okay. vented that out. silver linings? 1) i have a job and i’m sure that i’ll figure out a way to manage my report writing soon. also, 16 days left in the school year. cake. 2) i’m not going to starve. i can make food. farmers markets are open so i’ll just bring the veggie goodness this weekend. 3) money. money means getting to enjoy the farmers market this weekend…and brunch (mmmm bistro)…and time with M is almost here. it’s wednesday. two more days until we’re back on the relaxation train for a bit…and there’ll be hard earned money to spend when we get there because of all the time we spent apart during the week.

final silver lining? all this crap pushed me back onto the blog. FINALLY. 😉 maybe this will be another (a third? fourth? lost count.) new start. hip hip for that.

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